It seems to Draco that
everything is a little bit brighter with Ginny around. Things that he thought
were earth shattering last month don’t really seem to phase him right now. He
realizes this when they enter the Three Broomsticks together, and Millicent
Bulstrode is having a light supper there with her Mother.
Her
eyes widen when she sees Draco; he has no doubt that she too has mistaken his
disappearance for death. She watches with those eagle-like eyes of hers as he
and Ginny are shown to a corner booth, which secludes them from the majority of
the other patrons.
Ginny
has been extremely light hearted since their encounter with her brother and
Potter, and he has to wonder if it actually even has to do with him. Perhaps
she’s simply glad to have stood up to them, regardless of why
it happened – he doesn’t know. He doesn’t want to lose the closeness that
they’ve developed, though; she is still the only person on the face of the
planet that he trusts right now, besides the old man.
Draco
ignores Millicent for the most part. He knows that Ginny has seen her, but to
her credit, Ginny says nothing. She seems to understand that Draco will come
around on his own terms and won’t be pushed too far, and she accepts this. He
likes to think that she is so in tune with him that she just knows when to stay
silent.
He
orders a butterbeer, and she does the same. They are quiet for a while, and when
the waitress brings their drinks, it seems to loosen them up. Ginny keeps giving
him shy smiles that make his pulse race, and all he can think about is getting
her back to his tower where he can be alone with her.
It’s
not that he hasn’t enjoyed his day out with her, he reasons silently. He has.
He’s even enjoyed running into the Boy Wonder and his Bumbling Sidekick, which
is saying a lot. He gives her a warm look across the table – he now has
something that Potter will never have.
“Do
you want to fly again tonight?” she asks, breaking his reverie. He nods.
“Sure,”
he says, taking another drink of his butterbeer.
“Draco?”
He looks up, and there is Millicent, standing at the edge of their booth. He
glances at Ginny and is comforted to see that her knuckles are white, she is
gripping the mug’s handle so tightly.
“Millicent,”
he echoes coolly. She relaxes visibly, and gives him a weak smile.
“It’s
really you.”
“Who
else would it be?”
“It’s
just- I thought you were-“ He sighs. He knows that he’d better get used to
this for a while, at least; everyone thinks him to be dead, and everyone he
meets is probably going to ask him the same damned thing when they see him for
the first time.
“Yes,
well, as you can see, I’m not.” He looks at Ginny, who is staring into her mug. She seems to
have frozen, and Draco wonders if she thinks that not moving will make her
invisible to Millicent. When Ginny glances up at him, he winks at her. She bites
her lower lip to hide her smile, and her cheeks turn a delightful pink.
“Ginny
Weasley, right?” Millicent says, looking down her nose at Ginny. Draco is
filled with pride when Ginny looks up and sticks her chin out defiantly.
“In
the flesh,” she says sweetly. She is being somewhat guarded with her response,
and Draco can tell. Perhaps she doesn’t know yet whether or not he wants to
rekindle friendship with Millicent, and she doesn’t want to ruin it for him if
he does. Or perhaps she thinks that he’s interested in Millicent as more than
a friend.
“Was
there something you wanted?” he drawls lazily. “Or did you just come over
here to gawk at my friend and I?”
“Your
friend?” Millicent echoes, looking uncertainly at Ginny.
“Did
I stutter?” he asks, leveling an icy glare at her.
“It’s
just that I thought you hated her family.” Draco’s temper flares
immediately.
“Well
then, I suppose it’s a good thing that no one’s paying you to think,” he
says, his eyes narrowing. Millicent’s face goes red and splotchy with
embarrassment, and Ginny almost feels sorry for the girl. Almost.
“You
don’t have to be this way,” she says, fingering the hem of her jumper
nervously. “Things are different now. None of us are anything like what we
used to be.”
“You
still look the same to me,” he comments dryly, reaching for his drink.
Millicent
deflates at this, and her hands drop to her sides. Ginny doesn’t think she’s
ever seen someone look crestfallen before; she’s only read the word in books,
but if she had to pin an expression to the word, Millicent’s would be spot on.
“Things
have changed, Draco. Blaise is friends with Potter, Tracey is living with the
Ravenclaws, and I've been staying with the Hufflepuffs.”
“Did
your little speech have a point, Bulstrode?” he asks, irritated.
“No,
I suppose not,” she murmurs, eyeing Ginny distastefully. “I can see that you
have changed, and that your loyalties
have shifted, after all.”
“Indeed
they have,” he agrees, looking at Ginny. His lips curve into a soft smile that
is meant just for her, and warmth spreads from the top of her head to the tips
of her toes. He turns back to Millicent, who is gaping openly at him.
“I’ll
just see you around school then, shall I?”
“Whatever,”
he says, shrugging noncommittally. Millicent turns and walks away, casting one
final glance at him over her shoulder before she disappears from sight. He turns
back to Ginny. “Well, that was interesting.”
“What
are the odds?” she wonders aloud.
“Odds
for what?”
“The
odds that on the one day we decide to go out, we run into everyone we know.”
He smirks at this.
“If
your brother, Potter, and Granger are the only people in your social circle,
then we have bigger problems than I thought.” She rolls her eyes and laughs at
him.
“I
didn’t mean literally, and you know it, Draco.” A thrill runs through him at
the sound of his name from her lips. She has said it before, and she will say it
again, but he’s beginning to think that the sensation it causes will never
fade. “But now that Millicent has seen us, you know that the whole school will
probably know that we’re friends before the break is even over.”
“Will
they?” he asks, amused. “Well they’d all be wrong, wouldn’t they?”
“What
do you mean?” she asks, frowning slightly. He reaches across the table and
covers her hand with his, brushing his thumb lightly across her knuckles.
“We’re
a bit more than friends, so they’d be wrong.”
“I
suppose you’re right,” she admits breathlessly, her stomach turning wild
somersaults. The look that she’s giving him makes him curious, and he wonders
if she thinks that they’re only
friends, too.
Ginny
rises when he’s ready to leave, and she agrees that it’s time to head back
to the school. They are silent on the walk back, for which she is grateful. It
gives her time to think about the day’s events; to mull them over in her head.
She
had purposely avoided thinking about their shared kisses too much for fear that
she would overanalyze and ruin the memory of it with doubts and misgivings. She
had hoped that they would be more than
friends, but she hadn’t dared label the kiss as anything other than
experimentation – she doesn’t like disappointment, and it would disappoint
her terribly if he held no interest in her again after those kisses.
When
they reach his tower, she watches as he removes his cloak and hangs it back in
his closet. He helps her out of hers and hangs it as well. It gives her a sense
of belonging to see that he’s hung her cloak next to his, and she is suddenly
taken with the urge to hug him.
As
soon as he’s finished hanging the cloaks and closes the closet door, he turns
around. She flings herself at him, wrapping her arms around his neck and
squeezing. She is gratified when his arms encircle her and squeeze back.
“Is
something wrong?” he asks, feeling her tremble.
“No,”
she says, burying her face in the place where his neck and shoulder meet. “I
just – I’ve had a lovely day, and I wanted to say thank you.”
He
holds tightly to her, with one arm wrapped around her waist and his other hand
tangled in her hair. He has been aching to hold her since they left this
morning, but has settled for holding her hand instead, for fear that he will
smother her.
“Do
you still want to fly?” she asks. He grins to himself – as she speaks, he
can feel her jaw moving on his shoulder, and it tickles.
“I’d
really rather just stay here tonight,” he says.
“Are
you hungry?”
“Not
really. You?”
“No.”
They have already eaten their fill of sweets from Honeydukes, and Ginny has no
room for real food this evening. Even if she had had room, she knows that she
still would have said no to food right now; since this morning, her stomach has
been in knots every time Draco touches her.
“What
do you want to do?”
“Chess?”
she suggests, pulling away from him slowly.
“Not
tonight,” he breathes, his face inches away from hers.
“Talking?”
As she speaks, her eyes are focused on his mouth.
“Maybe
later.” When his lips touch hers, she can feel her knees getting weak. The
thought passes briefly through her mind that this is the design of some higher
power – otherwise would she fit so perfectly against him?
When
his tongue teases her lips apart, her legs give way beneath her. Draco is
surprised, to say the least, and he helps her to the bed, where she sits down on
the edge. She looks thoroughly embarrassed, which Draco finds endearing. He sits
down beside her and puts his hand on her knee.
“All
right there, pet?”
“I’m
sorry,” she says, shaking her head. “My knees…” Her voice trails off.
“What
about your knees?” As soon as the words leave his lips, he realizes what
she’s trying to say. A smirk of epic proportions graces his face, and he
squeezes her knee gently.
“Don’t
go getting a big head because of this,” she laughs.
“Oh,
of course not,” he says, arching an eyebrow and grinning wickedly at her.
“Do you need to lie down, or anything?” She gives him a gentle shove.
“As
if your ego wasn’t big enough,” she sighs melodramatically. He chuckles at
this. “If it gets much bigger, it’s going to suffocate the both of us.”
He
doesn’t have an answer to this, other than that he knows that after he killed
his father, he didn’t have an ego to speak of. He knows that she has changed
things inside of him, setting off a chain reaction like tumblers in a lock. With
every day that passes, he feels his old self coming back, although it’s
modified slightly from what it used to be.
He’s
spent the last several months questioning his father’s beliefs and teachings,
wondering if perhaps he hasn’t been led astray somehow. He has spent the last
week questioning why his father thought that the Weasleys were beneath them,
too. Sure, they weren’t wealthy in the conventional way, but Draco understands
now that there are different ways in which one can be wealthy.
If
he thinks of things in those terms, Ginny Weasley holds more wealth in one of
her pinkies than he does in his entire body.
Only
now, he thinks. Now she’s imparted something to him. She’s chosen to share
the wealth with him, and try as he might, he can’t fathom why.
He knows that he likes it and that he doesn’t want it to stop. He fears what
will become of him should she ever see fit to take that light away.
“Draco,
are you all right?” Her voice breaks into his thoughts, and he shakes his head
gently as though he is trying to clear the thoughts away.
“Yes,
I’m fine. I was just thinking.”
She
doesn’t ask about what, which doesn’t really surprise him all that much. He
has noticed that she anticipates his moods and she can differentiate between
them; she knows when she can push and when she shouldn’t.
“Are
you tired?” He has to smirk at this; he can’t resist.
“So
eager to get me into bed,” he teases. She snorts and rises from the bed, and
after she’s taken a few steps away, turns to look at him.
“I
can stand and walk just fine, thank you very much,” she huffs, with her hands
on her hips. “And if I recall correctly – which I do
– you’re the one who suggested that we stay up here the rest of the
night.”
“I
did,” he agrees, standing and moving to his dresser to find his pyjamas.
“And here we are.” She turns away and moves to her bag to get her own
pyjamas, ignoring the show that he is putting on for her by removing his shirt
and walking around that way.
“I’m
not impressed,” she teases. He stops walking and stares at her. “It’s
nothing that I haven’t seen before.”
“And
people think that I’m evil,” he mutters, shaking his head. “You are positively
wicked, Ginny Weasley. Think what a dynamic team we could be together.”
“Yes,
the epitome of evil and witty comebacks, that’s us,” she says, laughing. She
disappears into the bathroom to change, and when she emerges, she is wearing her
Quidditch t-shirt again. Draco is dumbstruck as she moves past him, seemingly
oblivious to the effect that she’s having on him.
She
moves to her side of the bed and turns the sheets down before climbing into the
bed. She glances over to where he’s standing, and she raises her eyebrows at
him. “I thought you were tired?”
He
climbs into bed quickly and dims the candlelight instead of snuffing it. When
she gives him a curious look, he shrugs. “I am
tired.”
“Then
why the lights?”
“I
thought we could talk for a bit,” he says. It is a half-truth, at best.
Talking is the furthest thing from his mind at this moment. He wants to hold
her, touch her; he wants to see her while he’s doing it. This is the first night that he’s
slept without a shirt, and she is in her t-shirt that doesn’t cover anything
past her knees. Talk would weigh heavily on the both of him, and tonight he
doesn’t feel like putting forth the effort that it would require.
“Did
you?” she asks, clearly amused. He arches an eyebrow at her.
“Why,
you sound as if you don’t believe me.”
“Maybe
it’s because I don’t,” she laughs. He grins at her, and then shifts so that
he’s lying on his left side with his head propped up on his hand. He is facing
her as she lies on her back. It would be
so easy, he thinks. So
easy to just bend over and kiss her, before she knows what’s happened.
“And what else would
I have in mind?” he asks, feigning innocence. Her smile fades as she watches
him.
“I
can’t explain it,” she whispers, her eyes locked on his. His heartbeat is
deafening in his ears; is she making a declaration of her feelings to him? Fear
gnaws at the back of his head, lagging just behind curiosity and the worst of
all possible emotions – hope.
“Explain
what?”
“Me.
You. This,” she says, her eyes glittering madly in the candlelight. “I want
to tell you something.”
“Is
it a good something, or a bad something?”
“I
guess that’s up to you,” she says, shrugging slightly. “In any case, I
don’t want to scare you away from being my friend. I’m not foolish enough to
think that everything would go back to normal if I told you and you didn’t
like what I said, but I am foolish enough to hope that we could try.”
“You’re
rambling,” he says gently. She gives him a wry smile.
“Sorry.
I suppose I do, when I get emotional. Well,” she says, taking a deep breath.
“I know that you know I have more than a friendly interest in you – or I
would hope that you know, after this
morning.”
“I
guessed,” he says honestly. Even in the dim light, he can see her neck getting
splotchy and her cheeks turning pink.
“It
wouldn’t be fair to either of us if I spent the rest of the week with you
without telling you what I felt,” she adds.
“So
you just wanted to tell me that you have more than a friendly interest in me?”
he asks.
“I-I…”
her voice trails off. She thought she could tell him, but now that the moment
has arrived, she finds that she can’t say the words. She is disappointed in
herself. It seems that her Gryffindor bravery has deserted her just when she
needs it the most.
“Hey,
it’s all right,” he soothes softly. “You don’t have to tell me
anything.” They watch each other in silence for an entire minute, and then the
temptation is too much for him. He leans over slowly, bringing their faces
closer together. When her eyes flutter closed and her mouth parts slightly, he
closes the distance between them and presses his lips to hers.
He
drops his right hand to touch her shoulder, and when she shivers, he increases
the pressure of the kiss. It is not frenzied and intense like it was that
morning – this time their kissing is slow and full of unspoken feelings.
Emotions ripple through him like waves crashing on the sand; he is happy, he is
warm, and he is loved. Even if she hasn’t said it, he can feel
it, and it’s the most wondrous thing he’s ever experienced.